I want you to colour my days, but more
I want to occupy your thoughts
Every one of the days
For days are just moments with-in or with-out
sometimes i think i expect too much. definitely. but of course. the expectations come from love. the closer u are to the person, the more expectations you have of a person. after all u won expect much from acquaintance or a stranger or a friend you aren't that close to. and similarly, prolly thats why i think some people put effort into doing things or changing things ... because it would please another. but i think love is supposed to bring it to a higher level? whether its romantic love, family love or what... there is a sacrificial element. i don believe theres love without sacrifice. a sacrifice that you are willing to make. not something ppl force u into to do.. e.g. i buy things and make time for my niece because i love her and i would not do it easily for other ppl. and then there are the every decisions we make to see if this person is really on our minds. sometimes its really not what you do or what you don't do. its what you never even think of doing and would never ever even sacrifice or change.
but i realise having too many these types of unconscious expectations can be really tiring and disappointing. but no fear. the heart has a natural mechanism to protect itself. i see my heart as being protected by this trampoline. initially this trampoline is really thin. so whenever a disappointment weigh upon it, it will hit the heart and cause it pain. however i realise that this trampoline gets thicker with time. somehow i think these days (normal days without stress) these disappointments barely hits the heart. maybe its because you have "broken all my expectations" its really hard to expect anything. if anything, i expect the worst. guess this is just preparing me. emotionally. but anyway it may be bcoz of the deduction (expectations = love)
cool thing is that there is a different trampoline for everyone. but the starting thickness differs =)
oh wells =)
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Lay Khim
18 April 1987
^Pandan Primary 6A'99
^Nanyang Girls High 4/11 '03
^NJC 04S16
^HCJC 04s69
^Singapore Management University
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