Monday, November 27, 2006
actually don need to worry about me i think.
haha. i am moody too much. but i get emotionally well fast as well. -esp after exams- thinks its just all the stress.. haha not able to breathe till thursday!
anw i din manage to sleep again last nite. i wonder why zzz ... nervous bout today's fa i suppose (which i had one big mistake but hope its not too bad.)
there was one weird dream i didn't mention. think its on.. sunday.. napping aft church. um i dreamt that i was going home.. (the home seems to be my childhood home) w low.. and then i saw pearlyn who says that its wenqing's birthday and asks us to come along to celebrate.. and ops i forgot it was her bday in the dream. wenqing seems to be living a block behind me and anw pearlyn ran off first.. but as me and low were trying to find wenqing's house... it seems as if we went into the wrong block.. coz we can't find the unit. and yet i could hear the voices coming from wenqing's house. esp cliff's voice. so loud. i could imagine cliff giving wenqing some big present. haha. i think i miss u guys too much too.
~7:36 PM
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~7:31 PM
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
i think God gave me so many disappointments so as to remind me not to have too much attachment to anything or anyone in this world. because we as christians are just being prepared for our real home in eternity. somehow, this just makes me think.. and gave me strength to let go of things i thought i am not so able to let go of. and thanks ann. for being eternally here. but anw. can i have an appointment w u in the hols?
~9:32 PM
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Ha!
~11:53 AM
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
there just never seems a moment that i can be truly relaxed.
last few weeks have been crazy.
so tightly strung i am.. i've been like crying every day.
and it doesn't seem as if the next few weeks will be better.
seriously. i hate smu.
and i realise its really hard for me to truly trust and rely on ANYONE 100% now. perhaps except my family. and my baby niece. and more nieces to come. I've yet to be able to truly trust God tho i really want to. but life just seems to tear me apart from Him. now i know why ppl say... last time that they don't really want to grow up. u face issues.. u never thought u had to think about.
plus disappointment is something i've never been truly able to bear. and maybe im just not meant to be attached. im just so tired.
so tired of everything.
i am.
~2:58 PM
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